It has been a while...

I have fallen behind. Believe me, my blog is not the only thing that has suffered over the last few months. I apologize to all of you who may be checking up on me, I am still here just insanely busy.

The Price of Power is coming along quite nicely, I must say. How? I will tell you. (There is a story there.)

Over the holidays I decided to read the Twilight series. I had promised myself that I would not do that, at least not until I had finished some of my other projects. You see, I tend to get very wrapped up in my reading when I find one that I enjoy and even though I didn't know if I would like those books, I was afraid of the temptation. I will admit to struggling in the beginning...feeling a little bored having outlived the high school scene and being glad to be done with it. But, once I fell below the surface and was touched by the emotion wrapped in the words in that book, I was hooked and I couldn't understand how anyone could possibly like what I wrote nearly as much. I am my own worst critic, as I am sure most people are, and I was ready to give up my dreams all because I was so overpowered by one book. Yes, I was down in the dumps and I turned off my laptop, letting my frustrations fester.

I continued to read the series until I at last finished them all. I have a support net that is quite close to me and I just couldn't take it anymore. I decided to talk to one of them about how I felt. When I asked how they could read my garbage after reading that, my "fan" gave me the most incredulous look. She told me she felt that my "garbage" was even better and that she would rather see my book as a movie than that one. (No offense meant toward Stephenie Meyer) She also told me that I had better keep on writing because I have a sequel to write and she wants to know what happens. hehe

I guess that was my turning point in this whole valuable lesson. I learned that I can't always feel inferior to those that I feel are better than I am. I need to turn it around and work harder until I feel that I am better than they are...not in a high and mighty way, but in a positive and successful way. If I can't believe in my own work, how can I expect anyone else to?

So, I readjusted my attitude and turned on my laptop on this last Saturday when I was alone at the house. What happened to me was just short of a miracle...Thirty seven pages in one day spilled out of me, all of it intense, exciting and moving the story forward. My personal best ever. My husband diagnosed me with Cranial Diarrhea, the never ending mind blowing creative running that produces stories that make you feel like you are right there. I can't wait for this book to come out now. I started out hating it terribly and with a little attitude adjustment, I have turned it in my favor so that I can't wait to open it back up again and start writing!

I am only human, I have good days and bad days too. You may as well know some of the tough times so you can appreciate the good ones with me!